The best you can do is to wait and watch...nothin else

Am i a liar? yes i am... But everybody has a reason to lie and it was same for me. The circumstances were such that i had to and that too deliberately. Precisely a year ago, in the month of December i met someone speacial and i fell in love with her. Did i do anything wrong? no way....coz love comes spontaneously. Now i realize, it was a great fault. No matter how much you try, some where some one is not waiting for you, other wise someone would have understood my feelings.

For the past few months, i have been chasing a dream and this is what really is making the matters worse. I do not have the guts to digest my failure and it seems to me that i have lost the faith on myself. In these disturbed times, i can just only wait and watch. The troubled times are ahead and i have to remain patient for the time being.

For everyone, including my parents and my loved ones, i have turned out to be the bad apple, the one to whom no once can confide.. the quintessential villain. But whoever can understand me can sense my fear, as greater deeds await and this is what now matters me the most. Of course i am a self centric egoistic, who likes to keep things simple and easy. But it is the nature of we homosaphiens to create complicacies. However, there is always light at the end of the tunnel and this is what keeps me going. What i need is an unconditional support and thats what i really need now.

There is a saying that not every question deserves an answer and thats what i mean!!!!!