" Out Bound to Delhi"

It was a conscious decision on my part to shift to Delhi. On that fateful night, when Pa asked"what are your plans for the future"? I knew the time had come to do something constructive rather than fooling around. Speaking the truth, I was going through a very bad phase. My on and off relation with my girl friend, no job and most importantly no money , pressure from my parents were taking a hard toll on me. I asked pa to give me some time to think over it. I was staying away from my home with two of my hostel mates in a rented apartment in Guwahati. Plainly speaking , the city was killing me from inside. I was trying to run away from my own self. The next day arrived and i told Pa who was staying on my apartment, as he was in the city for an official visit, that I will go to Delhi. I don't know what compelled me, but i had to do. I told my girl friend about it and she started crying. We met for a brief period. Really I was happy from the fact that I could inflict some kind of pain in her heart.The anguish in me seemed to be mellowed after that incident . I don't have any qualms to say that my girl friend was the biggest mistake of my life.

Of course, we did had a nasty break up. It was worse as it broke my confidence and completely shattered my ego. Even then, we used to talk sometimes twice in a week or thrice in a phone over the phone. It is hard to relive the moments, but destiny had something else for me. As of now, she is married and staying with her husband, leading a happy and blissful life.

Immediately after that, I left Guwahati for good. All my friends never came to know that I had left the city which I think had given me the best of my life, some of the best friends ,besides making me the man now I am.

Sometime in the middle of october'05 , I packed my bag and baggage and took the Bramhaputra Mail Bound to New delhi..